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Called Out

Well i finally did what I wanted for a while now & actually asked my dad how many times he’s lied to me, to which he hasn’t replied yet. So i asked mum & she’s just asking why and avoiding the question similarly. How the hell am I supposed to trust anyone if my own parents lie to me?

ughh i just hope i don’t get too wound up to say something I might regret

Turns out i already have. Don’t bother replying, my parents will have killed me by the time you read this

how to be a bastard to your dog

i found this while looking for how to treat a pet as an equal (here)

1. A dog should never be allowed to show even the slightest hint of aggression. If your dog displays that type of behavior, he should receive the highest form of discipline. If you are unable to do this with confidence, perhaps a muzzle is for you. All you have to do is win a couple of disputes and it won’t be an issue any more. If you are in doubt about how to administer a proper correction, seek the advice of a professional.

2. You can give him all the love you want, just make him earn it. Make him earn everything before you give him any affection or food (for example, make him sit before you pet him, or before you give him his food, or let him in the house.) He must rely on you for everything.

3. As a general rule, your dog should never sit on the sofa or bed. Occasionally there are exceptions to the rule with the more docile dogs. However, in the dog world, the dog that is lying equal to your level or higher up is the Alpha dog. You always want to be at least a head above your dog.

4. Make your dog moves if he is in your way. Do not step over him or go around him.

5. Never give a command you know you can’t or won’t enforce. Enforce every command. Make him obey on the first command. Do not repeat, or make your command sound like a request or a question. If you give him an option, he will ignore you. It takes getting away with something just once for him to challenge your authority.

6. Never play tug-of-war with an aggressive dog. It kicks in their instinct to compete and challenge. If you allow your dog to win a tug-of-war and take the toy off to a corner, as far as he is concerned, that is his prize, his kill, and he may challenge you if you try to take it from him. If you do play tug-of-war, you must always win in the end.

7. All members of the family should be consistent with training. All humans are above your dog. He must respect all members of your family. He must like who you like.

8. Circling and excessive licking are signs of dominance, however passive it may seem to you. An occasional kiss is acceptable but you must stop excessive licking. If he is circling you or your guests, cut him off. To the dog, that is like “herding his flock”.

9. Never feed him scrapes from the table. Try to feed yourself before you feed your dogs. If that is not practical, he can only eat when you give him permission to eat.

10. Doors and gates are very significant to dogs. To them it means, “whoever goes through the door first is leader”. You always go through doors first, or give them permission to go ahead of you.

11. Do not open the door for your dog when he scratches to be let in. He is giving you orders when he does that. When you open the door for him, it re-enforces bad behavior. Either ignore him until he stops, then let him in, or, make it your idea. Go to the door, make him sit and then invite him in. Do not let him come in as soon as the door is opened. He must wait to be invited.

12. If your dog wants to be pet by nudging you with his nose or pawing at you, ignore him, or at the very least, make him do something to earn that attention, otherwise you will have a pest on your hands.

13. When you try to calm a dog down while he is growling or barking by petting him and saying “It’s okay”, you are reinforcing that bad behavior. In his mind, you are encouraging him to continue. Never pet a dog that is growling or barking.

I dont do any of these when i’m with a dog & they respect me, I earn their respect by treating them as if the wer a normal person (all be it with some special issues)

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ENERGEE

Hehe its 23:38 & i can’t sleep i dunno whats wrong with me  i feel I Feel… Agitated, Energetic, Playful & Unresting. & it aint a full moon so that aint it ;p.

weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a strange feeling its invigorating i feel like i have to move, i neeeeeeeed to do something.

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my hair is practicaly on end

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Bored

Well It’s 00:00 and i decided to talk about an incident with my mum & me

she had worrying me about the ALAN (Advanced Literacy And Numeracy) tests. I didn’t know that you needed to do the practice, before they’d already happened & the comps were apparently down anyway so they couldn’t do it. So i couldn’t have done them anyway. Then she started saying stuff like ‘I’m worried because I think you’d have gone to it if your dad was here’ & that I’m only missed it because she’s a ’soft touch’ which has obviously made me feel even worse about a possibly stupid event that i can’t change anyway, so essentially she was just piling guilt on my shoulders that i didn’t even need. So I moaned at one of my friends about it.

So after a while of arguing he finally persuaded me to talk to her about it…

so we talked for a little while & cried for a considerably longer time
I just wanna bring up at this time that a few months back my mum asked how I was feeling, to which i replied, stupidly, ‘I’m feeling a little depressed’ (because I have very strange random mood swings) & she said “ooh, don’t say that, you hear all that stuff on the news about teenage suicides” and I was completely mortified.
So I brought that up as well & we cried some more  & had a little chat about how ,as a teenager, I felt I was expected to be an emotionally cold shell that didn’t even shed a tear for the sight of drowning puppies or another obscenity.

Don’t you just hate being human sometimes?
There isn’t enough physical contact in this world anyway, everyone is too molly-coddled, people shouldn’t be scared of expressing physical ‘love’ (love being love of fellow life form)
I am glad that I’ve got people like that, Kath & Matt I thank you, I don’t think this past year would have been survivable without both of you. Not that their efforts aren’t under appreciated, the most praise I would love to express cannot even be seen by the two I am speaking of, they cannot read & they are completely unaware of how nice my life has been during the time of their presence. They have accepted me as  one of their own  and if i knew a suitable method of showing my appreciation, I would. They are two golden retrievers named Zack & Ziggy and whenever I am with them all the troubles of human existence seem to melt away, I often catch myself missing them or thinking about them probably more than I should. Even just typing this I am reminded of how much I miss them almost to tears.
Nope I’m not a typical teenager…

I wish we had no hands, no speech, that way we could only express ourself through the purest of senses.

Please leave comments, so i know I’m not just talking to myself

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An Explanation

I am only posting this because i don’t want people thinking I’ve fallen out with them. I am having a kind of serious problem but I really don’t wanna talk about it. Just know that I am scared & if I seem a bit off I’m very sorry, I really don’t know how my mind will react to what i think might be happening. So before I possibly go completely insane I’m gonna post this where ever I can. I am going to involve my parents tomorow after my exam, I don’t know what will happen after that.

:(

Since no one’s botherd to talk to me i’ve decided to try medetation

good night & dog bless

*sigh*

Well lets just say I’m going through some serious issues at the moment and am facing some tough decisions that could & most likely will change the way I live my life

I’d love it if someone would talk to me about it, plz anyone? I just need someone to help, even if its just to vent.

To distract my mind for a few minuets, here are some stamps i found on DeviantART:

The Power Of The Dog

by Rudyard Kipling

There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie–
Perfect passion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
And the vet’s unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find–it’s your own affair–
But…you’ve given your heart for a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!);
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone–wherever it goes–for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart for the dog to tear.

We’ve sorrow enough in the natural way,
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we’ve kept ‘em, the more do we grieve:
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-time loan is as bad as a long–
So why in Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

I thought this was a good poem
I really want a dog though no matter how much it tears my heart to watch him/her die

I Got Tagged

I got tagged by one of my friends

I AM: IRON MAN!!! no I’m allot of things; human, happy, impatient, etc
I WANT: To go to my Nan’s already
I WISH: I was a wolf (hey if I’m gonna wish for something, its not gonna be something normal, its gonna be what i really really want)
I HATE: Humanity in general but my most hatred goes out to *drum roll* the Chavs

I MISS: The dogs

I HEAR: Holy Mountain by System Of A Down & the TV slightly blaring over

I WONDER: when i’m going to get off my fat ass & get some food
I REGRET: hmmm.. I cant really think of anything at the moment, I suppose thats good
I AM NOT: Normal
I DANCE: When you’ve got your back turned
I SING: Brilliantly, but my friends just don’t get my musical genius ;P
I CRY: Waaaaaaaaaaaay too much
I AM NOT ALWAYS: Stupid, I can think quite intelligently if you ask
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: what every other human makes tools for its own self destruction
I WRITE: This blog, My DA & MSN & meebo
I CONFUSE: Allot of people.
I NEED: Food & a Dog
I SHOULD: start revising for graphics
I START: well when mummies & daddies love each other very much…
I FINISH: When I’m good & ready
I TAG: You, haha walked into that one didn’t you? thats what you get for reading my blog!!

Kath, you gotta show me them pics